An interview with my child-May is for Moms link up

Today I am linking up with Amy over at Not Your Average Crazy. I've done something similar with Jayla before and I always love hearing the answers she comes up with.

First, let's start off with a picture of my favorite little girl. 

 1. What is your favorite thing that you and I do together? Playing and coloring together.

2. What is something important I have taught you that you will always remember? (i.e. Be nice to everyone, Always make your bed, etc.) To play High-Ho Cherry-O and my phone number.

3. What is your most special memory about me? Going to the beach

4. What is something nice I always say to you? I love you.

5. How are you and I the same? How are we different? We both have brown hair. You are old.

Infertility Sucks

I have debated so much on wheter I should post this or, not but it's my blog,and I blog for myself so I'm just going to put it out there.

I've been some what private about this situation.Only a small handful of people know what we have been going through so I'm just going to put it out there. 

The more people that know, the more unsolicited advice you tend to receive, and trust me I've had plenty of it. The main one I hear is,"Just quit trying and you will have a baby." "So and so quit trying, and they were pregnant the next month." Oh how I wish that statement were true. Of all the unsolicited advice, that is the one that pisses me off more then anything.

It will also give some insight as to why my poor little blog has been neglected lately.

I know tons of women struggle with infertility and have had a much harder time then what I am going through, but it's still my struggle and it doesn't make it any easier at times.

We have been trying to have a baby for 2 years now and never would have thought we would be experiencing this struggle after already having a child.

Ever since I had Jayla my body has been out of whack and my doctor could never tell me what the issue was. He would always just shrug his shoulders and hand me a script for a years worth of birth control. All the issues went away while I was on birth control but you can't have a baby while taking it. 

The first year of trying my body seemed to be ok and didn't have any issues but we still weren't getting pregnant but then it a took a turn. The issues were back with a vegence and I put off going to the doctor for so long. I really didn't want another shrug of the shoulder and him not even trying to figure out what was going on. I don't think I was even ready to find out. I was scared as to what it could be. Ignorance can be bliss sometimes.

I finally went and saw another doctor in December. He walked into the room and pretty much knew what was going on and had a game plan from looking at my past medical records. He started asking me questions, told me what was going on, and it all made so much sense. He said I have PCOS. Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. I broke down at the news. It was such a huge relief to know what was going on and to finally have answers after everything I had been through.(I will spare you the details of the issues, it's a bit TMI)

He put me on hormones for a month and if we weren't pregnant in 3 months to come back in and see him.

The hormones helped the issues alot. There was signifiant progress made but we weren't quite there yet.

Last month was the 3 month mark. No pregnancy yet so I went back to my doctor and did another week of hormones and he gave me script for Femara to help me ovulate.

The hormones(Provera, just in case you were wondering) that he puts me on are crazy! I have it so much! I'm moody, tired, and it makes me feel depressed. I know it's the medicine so my mind and body are waging a constant war with each other. I just can't snap out of it. I pretty much kind of check out from life.

I just finished the round of Femara last night and I hope it's the only round I have to do. It was almost as bad as the Provera but add in some pain. My body just hurt on that stuff. I felt so stiff. 

This whole infertility crap is for the birds. Sometimes I wonder if all the crap I'm going through is even worth it. I take a look at Jayla and instantly know it is. What I am having to go through is nothing compared to the reward I will have for the rest of my life. Jayla also desperatly wants to be a big sister and I think she would make a great one!

I've had my bad my days with this whole situation but it is what it is and I know we will be blessed with a baby when the time is right. All I can do through this is just have faith and treasure the moments I have with Jayla.

So with everything that has been going on in everyday life and this situation I just haven't had the energy or the desire to blog. Hopefully I will feel normal again soon and be back to a regular blogging schedule. I do miss it.

         




   

Chewy Peanut Butter Bars

The other day I let Jayla stay home from school. I think we both just needed a break from the craziness that has been going on. After we lounged in bed all morning she wanted to bake something. I didn't want to go to the store so I had to figure out something to make with items I already had on hand.

After scouring the pantry for supplies we decided to make Chewy Peanut Butter Bars. They are quick,easy, and so addictive. The only thing I don't like about these is, they just never seem to last long enough.

What you need:
1/2 cup butter
1/2 cup creamy peanut butter
1 1/2 cup all-purpose flour
2 eggs,beaten
1 teaspoon vanilla

In a large saucepan, melt butter and peanut butter. Remove from heat. Add sugar and flour. Mix well and then stir in eggs and vanilla. Spread into a greased and floured 13x9 baking pan. Bake at 350 for about 20-25 minutes or until lightly browned and the edges start to pull away from sides of pan.

You may have to bake yours a little longer. My oven tends to cook a little quicker. Start at 20 minutes and then keep checking every few minutes if needed.

Fender Bender

Last Friday I was in a car accident with my bestie. It wasn't exactly a fender bender. It was a bit more then that.

Our girls go to the same school so we usually run errands, have breakfast, and what nots together. It was just another ordinary morning of us hanging out but little did we know we weren't going to make it far in our little morning adventures.

We seriously didn't make it far from the school at all. Maybe 500 some feet before she ran a red light and hit another car. It all happened so quick. Normally, I am very observant and notice those kind of things and I didn't even see it until it was too late. I'm a pretty paranoid passanger. The last thing I remember seeing is that little red light going over my head.

There were 4 young men in the other car. 3 of them were already out of the car before we were and one guy never got out of the car. They all left in an ambulance for one reason or another. We did later learn that they were all okay and the nurse said that 3 of them were just pretty much pitching a fit. Regardless,I'm glad that they were all ok!

They weren't all that nice at the scene of the accident(except for one of them) and kept yelling at my friend. I don't know many times I heard,"Man,why'd ya hit ma car?" It's not like she intentionally did it.

She ended up going to the hospital after her car was towed and had a sprained neck. I opted out of going. The EMS looked me over at the scene and I really wasn't hurt to where I felt the need to go. 

I got a few bumps on my leg from the dash and nasty little bruise from the seat belt. Thank God for seat belts!! If we didn't wear our seat belts we could have been seriously hurt. I will take my nasty little bruise from a seat belt any day of the week!

If you don't wear your seat belt, PLEASE start doing so. You never know when an accident will occur. Better safe then sorry!

While my friend was at the hospital a 5th guy showed up claiming that he was in the car accident. He's not on the police report, and we didn't see him. We are thinking that IF he was in the car he fled the scene before we even got out and was scared to get in trouble with Mommy and Daddy or had a warrant out for his arrest. He showed up with his mom who said he was suppose to be in school.


 The accident doesn't look to bad from here. We were in the white car and the other car has a lot more damage to it. The tow truck guy said it doesn't look like we hit them too hard but it sure does feel like we hit them hard.

  

 Not too bad. I thought it was going to be a lot worse then that!

That was a few hours after the accident. I had red marks on my neck from the seat belt. The bruise got much more colorful the next day and really spread. It ended up going to my breast bone.

 

As if my morning wasn't bad enough when I got home I went on our back porch and sat down to call my mom and next thing I know I feel this fire in butt. I jump up wondering what is going on. It hurt so bad! I got stung by a bee. I mean really, only my luck!

 

Sweet Florida Sunshine

So I have been a pretty bad blogger lately and pretty late on getting this post up. Actually, I've been bad at putting any post up. 

Besides our day at Disney our vacation was really laid back and relaxing. Just what I needed and I got some wonderful qualtiy time in with my Grandpa.

Don't he look great for being in his early 80's? I hope I have his genes!

Our first night there we just sat on his dock and played bored games with Jayla and just chatted. The sun setting was beautiful! I already miss this view.

  

Jayla wanted to try her hand at fishing so I enlisted Daddy and Grandpa for that job. This mama wants nothing to do with fishing. Her excitement over fishing lasted maybe a whole 10 minutes. lol 

We also took Jayla to a little beach that was near my Grandpa's house to let her play. This beach was so nice. It had a nature trail, playgrounds,and picnic shelters. We ended up spending most of the day there. The beach was covered in little crabs. You could see them scurring into their little holes as you walked by. 

 

  On Thursday, we didn't do anything other then hang out at the house. We just relaxed and tried to recover from Disney. Luckily it was raining that day which gave us the perfect excuse to stay inside.

Three Things Thursday

I can't believe it's already Thursday and time for another edition of Three Things Thursday! This week has just flown by and the weekend is almost here! Yay!! 

 

 

This weeks topic is all about what you wanted to be when you grew up.

 

I really can't think of three things that I wanted to be when I grew up because for as long as I can remember I always wanted to be an archeologist. I had hoped to be an archeologist even as a junior in high school. It was the plan. I had looked into colleges for it and everything but some situations in life quickly halted that dream. I'm ok with it because if I pursued it I may not have the wonderful little family I have now. Everything happens for a reason.

 

It may be a good thing that I never actually was able to pursue it because now I don't like to get hot or dig in the dirt. I don't even do yard work.(that is about to change) 

 

I can remember being little and digging in the dirt for arrowheads and other artifacts. Sadly, I never found any but it never stopped me from digging in the dirt and exploring in the woods.

 

Panning for gold, and doing those little gem mining things were always one of my favorite things to do when we went on vacation. Actually, it's still one of my favorite things. It makes me feel like a little kid all over again. 

 

I was a whiz at identifying all the different stones I had found.

 

Last year we took Jayla to a Dinosaur expo and they had a little mining booth and I think she enjoyed it as much as I did. My mom and hubbs picked on me the entire time because of how excited I was to see it there!

 

Love her expression in this picture! 

 

 

 

   

A Magical Day

I've been dying to get this post up and share our day at Disney with you but since we got back things have been pretty crazy. Jayla came down with Bronchitis, hubbs was sick, trying to catch up on laundry, errands, and all the other normal day to day things. Jayla is quite clingy when she gets sick so it's hard to get much done.

We had a wonderful day at Disney. It wasn't too hot and it was an over cast day so we didn't have the sun beating down on us all day.

The first thing we did was meet the Princesses because it was only a 15 minute wait so we took advantage of that. Jayla was so excited to meet them. Normally she is shy and doesn't warm up to people quickly so I was nervous about how well she was going to interact with the Princesses. She went right up to them! You would have thought they were best friends with how she just walked up and started talking with them. She especially loved getting hugs by each one.

Rapunzel was my favorite. She was awesome and really into her character. Just bubbly and full of life. She even danced with Jayla.

   

After we met with the Princesses hubbs and Jayla headed over to get to in line to meet Merida while I went and grabbed fast passes for the Ariel ride. We had to get Merida done right way, Jayla was beyond herself to meet Merida. Merida is talked about quite frequently in our household. It's pretty easy to say that Merida is one of my Jayla's favorites.

We ended up having to wait almost an hour to meet Merida but once you get into the area to meet her they have crayons and coloring pages for the kids to keep them busy while they wait. 

Jayla's reactions to Merida were just priceless!

   

We really got a lot done for only having a day to spend at the Magic Kingdom. The whole month of planning and research really paid off. We got everything on my "to-do" list done except for meeting Belle and a few other characters.The line for Belle was just insane and Jayla was given the choice of meeting the other characters or riding some rides. She choose the rides, even over meeting Tinkerbell. I was shocked by that.

One of the things on my list was the Dumbo ride. Let me tell you, Dumbo pissed us off! There are two Dumbos now, one fast pass, one stand by. We went through the standy by line. We unintentionally  cut in line, it was pretty unorganized. We thought only two people could ride the ride at a time and Jayla wanted Daddy so I got out of line and waited for them.

Once you go through a line, you go into a circus building where you wait to get a pager before you get back into another line. It is air conditioned and a huge play area inside for the kids. 

Our cell phones had shotty reception there so I was having a hard time getting in touch with hubbs. After about 40 minutes I finally got a text from hubbs that he has about another 10 minutes before he gets a buzzer and then about another 40 minutes before he gets back in line. I watched a lot of people leave that ride before the rode it and no one looked happy. 

We didn't like being seperated from each other for so long. I mean we were there as a family to have fun and we weren't having fun at this point. I see a cast member who lets me into the circus tent and there are kids playing everywhere and you really can't keep an eye on your child. I didn't like that all! We wanted out of there so we asked Jayla if she would be upset if we didn't ride Dumbo but go get in line for the tea cups instead. Luckily she was game!!! 

Once we got over the Dumbo hump it was smooth sailing and we had a blast! Jayla did really good and really surprised me at how well she handled all the walking with very little complaining. If you are going to ride Dumbo, get a fast pass so Dumbo doesn't piss you off too.

I held her during the long lines to get her off her feet and before dinner I switched her shoes out which seemed to help because she didn't say her feet hurt anymore.

Leaving the parking lot that evening was quite confusing, we really didn't know where the exit was and no one around to direct you where to go. We finally found our way out and between the gps and the roads we got a little confused and missed our exit. The GPS rerouted us back to Disney and from there we were able to get to our exit and head back to my Grandpa's. Jayla was so wore out that she was passed out before we even got out of the parking lot. I think she passed out once she hit her car seat. Luckily we didn't catch any rain that day until we were leaving the park.